Have you ever taken a step back and asked why did you say that? Better yet, when you like someone and you are trying to flirt, you realize that you did not come across that way at all? I find that over the years I have placed an enormous amount of pressure on myself to be flirty and sexy. The crazy thing is I don’t know why.
I try to smile and say all the right things. Somehow I find myself cringing! Insert weird laugh here. Unlike my friends, my ability to play coy has never really existed. In light of recent events, I have taken a step back to accept that I am not good at talking to the opposite sex, Not to mention, my inability to have some faith in myself.
After some time of trying to get someone’s attention I realized that it should not be difficult flirting, even awkwardly. I found myself typing and retyping text messages and replaying words over and over in my head. In the end, I came to an epiphany. Why should things be complicated? Somewhere on this planet someone will get my quirks and all. It’s the waiting that sucks. In the mean time, I will spoil myself rotten and have fun.